I Fail as a Mother...

Didn’t sleep well for the whole last night. I wept in the car on our way back from Taiping to KL. I did one of the most stupid thing in my motherhood’s journey during the dinner last night. Very sad and down at the same time. I always believe, teaching children does not require harshness… Sweet talk to them when educating them on the right thing to do is always the better way instead of using ‘weapons’ at times… I believe, slowly talk to them to guide them the proper way is always not a difficult task to do.

But last night, I FAILED thoroughly as a mother. The concept which I have always strongly believe in seems cannot work out. Kimi is very playful, and at his age now, I believe, most boys also are playful and naughty, so does my son. I do understand this so I always try some soft ways to guide him properly but then the stubbornness in him seems like getting worse nowadays.

He brought his toys cars to the dinner last night. He was playing with them and also playing with some games from my mobile. On and off, he was showing his playfulness on the dinner table. When food were served, I wanted him to eat his rice but he refused to eat. He took my plate of rice and turned them upside down. Okay… my patience was being challenged at that time. I picked the rice up and put it aside. I ordered another place of rice and wanted him to stop playing and to eat his rice. He refused again and kept on playing with this toys cars. I was very angry by then… I beat him in public and of course he cried very loudly. This added to my level of heat to the max!!

I never think of one day I will do this in public to my son. Very sad at the same time very disappointed... I very disappointed in myself for not being a good mum, for not being able to guide him correctly, for not being able to control my temper properly!! No one can understand the feelings I have at that time, except for myself. 

Very sad… Even now think of it also still feel very heart pain… Sorry Kimi, Mummy does not want it to be in this way :( Mummy knows that I have hurt you, but it hurts me deeper when I see you crying. Even until now when I am writing this blog post, tears are still rolling in my eyes when I think of what I did last night….

Hubby wanted him to say sorry to everyone on the table for what he did. And Kimi went whole table to say sorry using his own cute way…. It melted my heart when he did this and made me regret more over what I had done. Sorry Boy!

And this is my cheerful Kimi @ 2 years, 9 months & 2 weeks’ old ~

Nico @ 6 months' old

6th June 2012:

Nico will be at 6 months' old in another 3 more days. Today I myself brought him to the hospital for his check-up and jabs as his Daddy couldn't make it to accompany us. Luckily Nico was quite co-operative throughout the whole process. Although the waiting was a bit too long, he was not that fussy and sat obediently in his stroller playing with me and the nurses there. Otherwise, if he gets fussy, I think his crying sound will be heard at everywhere. Nico had his 3rd dose of Rota virus vaccine today as well.

Nico weighs 9.7 kgs @ almost 6 months' old :) His pediatrician told me that Nico is a bit over weight at his age. But Paed informs me that this is fine, he is a healthy baby. So his weight is nothing to worry about. Nico can start on his solid food already too. That's good to know!

So, I have prepared these for him to try once he reaches 6 months in another few more days ~ Will also try to prepare some porridge for him too to see which one he prefers :)

And, one more happy thing! Nico finally manage to TURN his body!! He is a bit clumsy whenever he is trying to do his turns and gets very angry when he cannot not make it to turn his body. However, on Monday night when I was putting him on the bed to sleep, he finally TURNED himself! I do not want to miss out this important milestone of him, so I quickly ask Hubby to snap a photo for Nico before he falls down from the turn. See how happy is Nico!

Time flies! My baby Nico is turning 6 months very soon ~

Mother's Day Weekend

This year, I spent my Mother's Day at Taiping. I had a fruitful weekend with my two lovely boys and also to celebrate Mother's Day with my family. 

The Mother's Day Cake which I ordered from 'Free Mori' ~ It is really very nice! MIL and Kimi ate 2 pieces each. Both of them enjoyed the most! Glad that MIL likes the cake too. I myself also ate 2 pieces! Haha :)

 

~ Some of the food we had at a local hotel ~

 

I spent a quality and lovely weekend with my sons. Never realize Kimi has grown up so much in such a short time... It seems like only yesterday I was holding him with only one arm, and today he can run in the park, cycle his bicycle and play the slider by himself ^^ How time flies! Seeing him grows up happily is one of my biggest achievements ~

~ Kimi @ 2 years, 8 months & 1 week's old ~

 

  

~ Nico @ 5 months & 1 week's old with his new Teether ~

Wish both my boys grow up healthily always!

Free Mori

I came across some roadside buntings promoting ‘Free Mori’ early last week. I got curious over it as it only showed the words ‘Free Mori’ without any explanations on it . It really attracted me in some ways. Then I came across one of the buntings which shows the grand opening date only. But then where is this ‘Free Mori’ located? This question finally had an answer when I drove to SS2 for lunch a few days ago.

I saw ‘Free Mori’ signage!! Very curious over it and after found a parking lot, I walked to the shop. So surprise to see some crowd in the shop. It is full with very beautiful decorated cakes and pastries and also nice smell of bread!! I bought a few pastries there. Really very delicious! The price a bit more expensive compare to the other bakeries nearby / same row, but the quality of the pastries are so much better. I personally very like it :)

The photos above explain everything… I went there for 2 consecutive days. I will definitely go back again as I order a Mother’s Day Cake from this bakery. Hope the cake will taste nice… ~ Happy Mother’s Day to all the MOTHERS!! Stay Young and Happy Always ~

FREE MORI (SS2)
Address: No. 43, Jalan SS2/64, 47300 Petaling Jaya, Selangor.
Tel: 03-7873 0212
(It is located same row as Bank Muamalat, Guardian, Save Mart, Baby Land, Baker’s Cottage at SS2)

Do give it a try if you happen to be at SS2! They do serve very nice drinks too ~

Chocolate Walnut Mini Cupcakes

After so many years stayed in a rented house, I stopped baking for so many years... Finally, I have moved into my own house with an oven which allows me to bake whenever I want. Really very happy! I am doing what I have been liking all these while ♥ Hope I can learn to bake more delicious cakes for my lovely families in the near future ~

Last night, I took out the old-looking recipe book of mine with loads of dusts on it. The dusts were there since many years back and finally, I have decided to give it a clean! Browsing through the dusty recipe book brings back so much memories for me... I am missing those time when I baked together with my Mum and sisters back in Pontian!

07.05.2012: Today I tried out the Chocolate Walnut Cake recipe which I used to bake it many years ago... First attempt after so many years, and luckily they turned out successfully :) Hubby is the first lucky person who gets to taste it. He is a person who does not like to eat cakes, but then he is willing to try it out for me. Glad that he finds the cupcake taste nice! He says can bake for Kimi to try too ~

~ The outcome ~

 

 

~ In The Oven ~

 

Recipe to share:

Butter                        250 grams
Eggs                           8 Noz (To use 8 noz egg yolks and 7 noz egg white)
Flour                          170 grams
Baking Powder         1/2 Teaspoon
Icing Sugar                230 grams
Chopped Walnuts    80 grams
Chocolate Chips       30 grams

Methods:
1) To separate egg yolks and egg white – (To use 8 noz egg yolks and 7 noz egg white)
2) Cream the butter and add in eggs yolks to beat well.
3) Beat the egg white with the sugar. Then fold in No.2 and mix well.
4) Then add in the flour and baking powder. Fold in the chocolate chips and walnut. Mix well.
5) Bake the mixture at 150°C for about one hour in a 10” tray. When the cake is half-cooked, apply the egg yolk on top. Continue baking till the cake is done.

Note: I use around 40 minutes to bake the mini cupcakes size as above. The amount of ingredients I use as above can bake for 20 mini cupcakes.